Christmas Light

Posted by Jonathan Trentham


Our Christmas lights are so small and white
Covering the landscape and filling our sight
But one Christmas Light shines brighter than all
It's the Light of the world, wrapped up in a shawl

Without a place to have His first sleep
The Shepperd from heaven lay down with the sheep
Silent and holy, he laid down his head
News of his arrival had already spread

Born of the Spirit and pure as can be
He came down from glory to set us all free
God's Gift from heaven was not one of might
But a small baby boy, the true Christmas Light

Quick Update

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Hello all,

Its been a little while since Ive posted, and I'm not sure when I will return to a more regular schedule. But I wanted to at least give you all an glimpse at what God has been doing in my life.

I can sum it all up in three words: Prayer, Humility, and Excellence

Prayer:

It seems as though I just finished a lesson on prayer. Over just the last few months, God labored with me teaching me the definition of intercession, and I did an enormous amount of study on prayer, not to mention the actual time praying and interceding (please pray that I keep the ball rolling with intercession). But I cannot deny an intense call back to dig in about prayer. During the last CCA (College and Career Age) gathering, we discussed discerning of seasons in the Body of Christ. During this discussion, I could feel God saying to me that He would draw us into a better understanding and practice of prayer. Sure enough, Randy mentioned that he felt a season of prayer coming. And it wasn't just me and Randy who could sense this coming, there were others that night who could feel it as well. So please pray, not just for me, but for the Body as a whole, that we can prepare for this season, and that we would glean all that is there to gather throughout this blessed season.

Humility:

Wow...this has been a tough one. I wont go into all the details, but many of you know in part what all has been going on in my life. I have been humbled in more ways that I can count, and I say "keep it coming!" The blessings poured out, and yes I mean POURED out on the humble are beyond description. I have learned of my own foolishness in finances, relationships, and as well as everyday wisdom. God has graciously removed His hand of favor from different areas of my life one at a time to show me just how foolish I am without his wisdom, and guidance. I really don't see why I don't make these mistakes daily in every area of my life! God truly watches over me day in and day out! He is faithful to those who are faithful to Him. And praise God because without his tender TENDER mercy, I would be lost, completely lost. I have gained a new understanding of who God is. God is a merciful god. In the past I have had difficulty trusting God to provide for me when I take risks he has asked me to take. And it blows me away that He still provides even when I struggle to trust. But what really gets me is when I can go and make a complete fool of myself, and get myself into all kinds of trouble, and He delivered me from MY own troubles! How great is my God?! He is truly worthy to be praised!

Excellence:

This is a word that God has asked me to define. What is Excellence? well...I'm still working on that. But I am learning some amazing things. Every time I learn something new about excellence, it amazes me that, with God's help, I can make that part of my character. So far God has been showing me Antonyms of Excellence (I don't know why Antonyms, but I am learning a lot). Some of these are Compromising, Passive, Failure, Procrastination, Indifferent, Mediocre, Corrupted, and Second-Rate. Needless to say, these are not things you want to find in yourself. But I have found that with Antonyms, I now know what to look for when I am searching myself to find sin within me. How can I remove such things from my life if I don't know what they look like? God has spent a great deal of effort working with me on these things. I am very thankful for the work He has done and continues to do in me. If you aren't letting God work in you and teach you, please take my advice and turn to God. He waits for you, with His eyes on the horizon watching until he sees you turn back to Him. And from far off, He will see you and run to meet you. Of this, I can give testimony!


Yes, I know that looks like a lot, but believe me when I say that it is just a glimpse! God is willing and able to do great works in us, if we will only let Him.

Count Your Blessings

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

The original title read "Accounting" but the sale sticker covers the "Ac"


When upon life’s billows you are tempest-tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Refrain:
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
And you will keep singing as the days go by.

When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold;
Count your many blessings—wealth can never buy
Your reward in heaven, nor your home on high.

So, amid the conflict whether great or small,
Do not be disheartened, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end


"A thankful heart is not only the greatest virtue, but the parent of all the other virtue." - Cicero

This past week has been a tough week for myself as well as many of my friends. Last night when some friends and I gathered to pray, I first asked for praise reports, and there was a silence, no one really had anything right off, not even myself! This is TRAGIC! For a christian, this is not only unacceptable, but IMPOSSIBLE! Do we not serve a GREAT GOD?! Slowly some basic things started coming to mind....the weather is nice, i'm not sick, and I have a job. But I didnt feel like I was thankful for those things, and I sure wasnt giving God the praise He was and still is due! I went back to my appartment, and watched 0ne of my favorite movies, "Facing the Giants", It really helped me reset my way of looking at God's hand in my life. As time goes on, more and more things are brightening my day. I live in a HUGE appartment, drive a VERY nice truck, I have lots of very nice clothes, I have NEVER missed a meal (THANK YOU GOD!), I have the most amazing church family on the entire earth, and I truely mean that! (Just try to find a better one!), And my relationship with my Heavenly Father is growing by leaps and bounds!, and that is ALL God. My list truely does go on and on! So next time we meet and pray, be VERY careful about asking for praise reports!! cause I've been COUNTING!

While Jesus was on the way to Jerusalem, He was passing between Samaria and Galilee.
As He entered a village, ten leprous men who stood at a distance met Him;
and they raised their voices, saying, "Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!"
When He saw them, He said to them, “Go and show yourselves to the priests." And as they were going, they were cleansed.
Now one of them, when he saw that he had been healed, turned back, glorifying God with a loud voice, and he fell on his face at His feet, giving thanks to Him. And he was a Samaritan.
Then Jesus answered and said, "Were there not ten cleansed? But the nine--where are they?
"Was no one found who returned to give glory to God, except this foreigner?"
And He said to him, "Stand up and go; your faith has made you well."

Luke 17:11-19

HOLY HOLY HOLY: Glory to the Trinity!

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Holy Holy Holy
You are the Lord God Almighty
Holy Holy Holy
I come to You on bended knee
Holy Holy Holy
Who is, who was, and is to be

Holy Holy Holy
You're the Lamb who was slain for me
Holy Holy Holy
You died and then You rose in three
Holy Holy Holy
Who is the King eternally

Holy Holy Holy
Living Spirit of God in me
Holy Holy Holy
You make it so the blind can see
Holy Holy Holy
Who fills my soul with jubilee

Prayer Poetry

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Abba,

Wont you come and meet me here.
Please come and calm this heart of fear.
I'm lying down on this hard floor,
in this small room behind this door.
There's no one here but You and me.
My heart's been locked, but here's the key.
It isn't much, but here I am.
Please cover me with Blood from the Lamb.

I need Your mercy and Your grace
to shine again upon my face.
I need You, Abba, to meet me here,
to bring me joy, to take these tears.
I come before You humbly now.
I hear Your Word and cry "Ee-Taow!"
I lay down here at Your very feet.
I cant raise my eyes unto Your seat.
My head is low bearing all my shame.
Please take it all in Christ Jesus's name

Please hold me like You used to do.
Capture my heart; draw me close to You!
I am not worthy to be called Your son.
It isn't by anything that I've done,
but solely by Your saving grace
that I've found Your warm embrace.
Renew your Spirit in my soul,
and cleanse my lips with the burning coal
That I may go to the ends of the Earth,
proclaiming aloud Your unfailing worth!

Teach me, O Lord, how to do intercession.
I want to go deep for a strong foundation,
so that I can carry all of the weight
that will eventually be piled upon my plate
I know that the ground looks broken and torn,
but a building of Yours will soon adorn
this hill where You have set me to be
until that day when I will see
You coming down to claim your own,
and gather the seeds that you have sown!

I come to You not in my own name,
but through Jesus Christ whom I proclaim!

And I Shall Be Called...

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Recently I have been hearing a lot about how a name reflects who a person is. There are may examples in the Bible where a name directly reflects the persons personality or attributes. Therefore, I thought it appropriate to find out what my name means. My full name is Jonathan Ray Trentham.

Jonathan is Hebrew and means Gift from God, or God has given

Ray is Germanic and means Advice or Decision protector

Trentham refers to those who reside near the River Trent in Wales. The River Trent is called Trent because it is a "gushing river" also translated "overflowing". Trent also means to travel or to journey.

I dont claim to be some great gift from God or a great place to go for advice, but I will continue to examine my name and watch how God grows me into it. I believe a name can influence you if you allow it to, and I plan to take hold of what I have been given.

….THERE’S MORE. Getting God’s Heart and Giving Birth to His Dreams

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

This message was written by my aunt, Stephanie Powers, for a fellowship of believers on campus at UT Knoxville. She delivered it at the amphitheater during the regular thursday night worship time. I personally found this message very encouraging and insightful, and I gained a great deal from it. I hope you too will take some time to hear what God had to say that night.




PRAYER is intimacy with God that births new Life. It’s like this soda. It sits contained in a 2-liter, but when I shake it up, it just creates and creates. It changes its environment, and keeps multiplying. The whole scripture tells us that God is a God of relationship and intimacy. It tells us that HE is always ready to work and create, and to partner with us…. But He is stuck. Why is He stuck? He is stuck because He has self-limited Himself to wait, until His Body moves in prayer, asking, seeking, knocking, praying according to His purpose which is outline in His Word. His precious Word that brings Life. Jesus said, I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. So if that is His essence, when we mingle with Him, we birth things of Way, Truth and Life. But how will we know what is on His heart and mind? Miracle – He puts it within us, when we are covenanted to Him and seeking Him with all our heart, mind and soul. Covenant is a powerful thing – In the days of Abraham, people made covenant for a number of reasons – love, peace after war, etc. Being under covenant with someone meant that each would give his very life for the other, closer than a brother, even exchange names… if the other party ever needed anything, he had the right to come and ask and it would be given, no matter what it was – they were as one. God has chosen to covenant with us as His people. You are His covenant partner, if you have crossed the divide by accepting His forgiveness that He offers us because of the price paid by Jesus. We could spend a whole other teaching on covenant, but let me just show you one thing here that touches my heart deeply. Remember covenant included the exchanging of names. Do you see that God exchanged names with us? Jesus was the Son of God, and we were the son of man. Yet, Jesus was called the Son of Man, and we are called sons of God. That is AWESOME – I mean, I am put in awe when I consider that. That is a whole other teaching. What I want you remember right now, is that if you have placed your life in the hands of God and accepted His forgiveness and you have given God the Lordship of your life, you are a covenant partner.

Now that you are under covenant, out of and in your love for your King, you enter His gates, to His very throne. It’s not a big palace to which you have to borrow the keys or go looking for someone that can let you in. No, you HAVE the keys to that place. God is enthroned in our very hearts! We enter His presence with confidence – not like Queen Esther who had to risk her life, hoping the king would grant her an audience. Did you know that you are a priest and king of the most High God? Don’t we kind of read in awe that Herod offered his wife even half his kingdom, and King Xerxes did the same for his beautiful wife Queen Esther? Well Jesus told his disciples not to fear, and assured them that it was the Father’s pleasure to make available the FULL Kingdom to them! How many times does He tell us to ask? Don’t believe me on any of this – take notes here and go look it up for yourself. Ask God the big and little questions, don’t get discouraged when you read something and don’t understand. Ask ask ask ask ask ask ask ask. Who had the most intimate relationship with Jesus during his ministry on earth in the flesh, according to what we read in the New Testament? He kept giving them these confusing parables, and then there were only a few that came back to ask questions. The disciples kept asking him, Lord, what did you mean by that? Jesus was drawing them in, wanting them to ask questions, to engage Him. Are you engaging Him? Acting like we know or understand something or someone, brings no life at all. We often go for the appearance of things, and having lived all over the world, and in various parts of our country, here in the south we especially have this tendency to go for the appearance of things – as long as I say the right things and go to the right meetings and go enough times etc etc, and as long as I can quote a few scriptures along the way and use spiritual words, I’m good; that’s what it means to be spiritual. NO. To be spiritual means to know God and to follow and obey His known Word and what He puts on our hearts… daily, moment by moment. To ENGAGE Him. Don’t just listen to those parables and then repeat them to others. ENGAGE HIM. ENGAGE HIM who is called the Way, the Truth and the Life. Let me put this aside just for a moment. There may be some of you here that are listening, and you have not entered a covenant relationship with God through Jesus. Maybe your heart is beating fast as I’m speaking, or your stomach has butterflies, or you feel like you’re going to cry, or you’re thinking, “I want that, I’m hungry for what that lady is talking about”. First, just start speaking to God and offer Him your heart. Ask Jesus to reveal Himself to you. Don’t believe based only on my testimony – let Jesus reveal Himself to you! Let me be blunt; we all come as broken people who need healing and forgiveness. Coming to Jesus means to repent, which means to TURN and walk away from our old self and old ways. We give ourselves up, because it’s worth it. Jesus asks us for everything – it is the most costly decision you will ever make. BUT, then He gives us back more than we ever thought possible, and so much more than we ever had. It’s a totally unfair trade and exchange. He paid the price, He made the way, and we sacrifice all we thought we had, to gain true Life – bubbling, changing, expanding, reproductive, healing, Life that lives forever in the presence of our Creator God, the only uncreated God, who formed us and made us and loves us with an everlasting love that is so far beyond our human understanding of love that we just can’t grasp it. Run to Him and place yourself at His feet. Ask Him to do what it takes to show you and the Truth and to help you follow after it. There will be folks who’d love to talk more with you after this time together.

Now, we were talking about engaging God. That brings me to prayer. Prayer has many elements to it. In prayer, we go the full gamut of communication and relationship. We praise and glorify God, we acknowledge who He is, and who we are, we confess our failures and receive his forgiveness and healing and Love and joy, we intercede, meaning we ask for things according to His will that we know, and sometimes we ask for things we’re not sure are in His will, and just ask Him to clarify that for us. We ask for help. We pray for our friends and loved ones, and yes, we absolutely pray for and bless our enemies. AND WE RECEIVE FROM HIM. Sometimes we receive in silence. Sometimes he speaks in a small voice, or a gut feeling, or a thought, or goosebumps, or we cry. Sometimes he tells us many things that we can’t put into words. Sometimes we look back and realize that even though we felt nothing or sensed nothing was going on in those times, our heart was being changed. We become more like Him, reflecting Him more and more, the more we seek His face. I remember about a year before I went to Africa, I would daily sit in my bedroom after reading and pondering the Scriptures and praying, I would literally lay my hands on my head and my heart, and ask God to change it all around to be like Him – MOVE what needed to be moved, get rid of the stuff that didn’t matter, just change me. I pictured a house that needed cleaning and all the furniture renewed and changed around. That’s what I prayed. I rarely felt anything. But looking back, I would get goose-bumps, because over time, I knew something big had been happening. The Potter’s hand was welcomed, and He was forming me and giving me new things in my heart and mind, to see as He sees. I still do that now--- I’ll never completely get it this side of knowing Him in full, face to face. But I’m seeking, grappling, pouring my heart out before Him, renewing my mind through His Word that He has gifted us with.

Let’s look at the apostle Paul’s work. Paul was one of the earliest missionaries that we read about in the Old Testament, who had a vast ministry and raised up people to follow the Lord across many nations. He was imprisoned many times and persecuted, but always content and full of Love for the Lord. Isn’t it incredible to see how the church grew during that time? We read Paul’s passionate letters to those who he had visited before, and those who he couldn’t quite get to… what does he always assure them? He prays for them – He thanks God for them, remembering them always in his prayers… day and night. And he always urged the others to pray for him and to pray for their brethren. We see the fruit of that in the early church – that God did that. What did Jesus spend so much time doing – He prayed. I challenge you to go study John 14-17 which includes what God prayed for the early Church and for us (those who would come). He pleaded with God that He would make us one, as Jesus is one with the Father. What happened and is still happening today, is a direct result of those prayers. I imagine God with raised right arm in the heavenlies, ready to act, with millions of angels at attention ready for the word, and as soon as Jesus, or we pray something according to His will, his arm comes down, the flags go up, and there is a spiritual action that ignites in that moment. Angels are sent to fight the demonic forces that hold many in bondage, that hold whole nations and people groups in bondage, that hold our hearts in bondage, and they fight. You can read some great stories that demonstrate that in the book of Daniel and other places in the Bible. But for now, just know that God ACTS in response to our prayers. The Bible says that God LOOKS for those who will pray and intercede as priests – read Ezekiel…. He is looking for men and women whose hearts are right – what does that mean? Hearts that are in love with Him, entwined with His heart, – Jesus said in John 15: “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. If you abide in Me, and my words abide in you, you will ask what you desire and it shall be done for you. By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be my disciples”. So, when we pray and seek God’s face and His heart, and let Him minister to us, He gives us His heart, and answers what we ask.

Let’s look at the prophet Isaiah and how God gave him His heart. It says in Isaiah 6 that Isaiah was before the Lord and was seeing things in the heavenlies. As he was praising and worshipping God, it naturally led him to repent of his sin – he said I am a man of unclean lips and now I’m going to die because I’ve seen God. God cleansed him, and then, guess what? Isaiah heard God say something about what God needed. It says, “Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying: Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?” That was the problem God was trying to solve – it’s what was on God’s heart. He had a mission to fulfill, but he didn’t know who was willing to go – “Who will I send?….” Isaiah said here am I, but oh God I need preparation. God said no problem – you need clean lips, here’s my angel with a coal of fire to cleanse your mouth. Now go. Jesus told his disciples, go go go. Don’t worry, I’ll give you My words. Those disciples were with him, walked with him, wrestled with him, asked questions to understand, ate and drank with him. Were they perfect? Oh no! They just didn’t get so many things. Toward the end there were STILL jostling for position to be the greatest, the highest, the one to sit next to Jesus, who was most loved, etc etc. But they engaged Jesus. When His spirit came upon them, then they were ready to take it to the very end – it didn’t matter the sacrifice. He dwelt in them and they were empowered with His Love and Presence. This is one of the most exciting aspects of prayer, to me. I love bringing my personal requests to God, and lifting up all my loved ones, and all of the people that God has put on my heart to pray for. I pray regularly for Osama bin Laden and his family, for Al Queda – that they may know Light and Love. But to believe and press into wanting to sense God’s heart and His mission, and what He is aiming to fulfill, first through prayer, then through action, is so so exciting to me. You may have many crushing problems in your life – a broken relationship, what seems to be hopeless situation, or a failure, or many failures! I encourage you to bring those to the Lord. And then, lift up your heart to Him and ask Him what’s on His heart… what are His purposes for you, your family, your school, your city, your nation, the nations….

If you are sitting here tonight, or you may have walked in not having planned to come here to this amphitheater, I can assure you that you are here because someone has prayed for you. A relative, a grandmother, a friend, or even someone that doesn’t know you, praying that God would meet students at UT and in the community. You have been drawn. All of us, we are moved by the prayers of someone else, that were prayed according to what was on God’s heart. God told us that even moreso than a tired man who is badgered by his neighbor for bread and finally gives in, is God eager and willing to give us what we ask Him for. The Bible says that God gives His spirit without measure to His children who ask! He is not stingy!

I have a picture in my heart that I often lean into. You know those hooks that you can hang your coat or hat on, just inside the door of a house? I picture huge hooks like that that represent the names and character of God. When I pray, its as if I grab hold of those hooks and I hang myself on them, wrestling with God, reminding Him of His covenant, and I ask for the big stuff – but I ask Him for what is according to His word and His way, and the things that He puts on my heart. Sometimes its people, sometimes it’s stuff in my own life, and sometimes it’s whole nations and people groups. My times of prayer with the Lord come from the most personal and intimate part of me. I remember almost 15 years ago, a mentor of mine told me, Stephanie, to know me most intimately, would be to know my prayer life. That made such a deep impression on me, because I realized that I had no fire or intimacy, or a real sense of relationship in my prayer life. It wasn’t very personal! I kind of had a list that I went through dryly, and there was no give and take. It was just a discipline that I struggled to do. But now I understand what he meant. It takes time and heart and commitment. It takes doing things we don’t feel like doing sometimes. It’s a sacrifice! By definition, sacrifices aren’t fun to give are they? They hurt, they cost something! Well still today there are times in my prayer life that feel dry or fruitless, but I can tell you that even in those times, God feeds me; and SUSTAINS me. He is our Shepherd. He promised us that yes, we WILL find Him if we seek Him with all our heart. It’s not enough to seek with the mind; He wants to engage our hearts, our emotions, our wants and desires, our passion. He wants us to lean into Him, cling, wrestle, negotiate as a partner. Let’s talk about that a second. God made us partners with Him. What does that mean? If you’re a partner with someone else, is it acceptable for one of the partners to make all the decisions and the other to fulfill them? No! Partnership means that things are decided together! Have you ever noticed how in Genesis, the Scripture says that God came down to see what Adam would name the animals? It says, “Out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name.” Adam used the God-given creativity within him, to name the animals what came to his heart and mind, and God enjoyed it!

If we are going to have intimacy with God that births a new thing, we must know Him and His purposes. I know that sounds obvious and elementary, but it often gets forgotten when we set out to do what’s on our hearts. Our hearts, as we all know, are very capable of going astray. I am constantly humbled at my heart’s tendency to stray from God and His purposes – moment by moment, act by act, word by word. I have to wage war against worthless words that tear down and complain, jealousy, envy, despising, envy, bitterness, lying, cheating, desperation, lack of faith …. We all do. Not one of us is above these things, and if we think we are, the scripture says to beware because we’re just deceiving ourselves. SO, we need God and we need him daily, like the manna in the wilderness. He gives us what we need for each moment, each day. He is looking for his people to seek Him continually. Being rooted in His word, and spending time with Him seeking His heart and letting Him plant things in us, is the only way to know Him and to have the give and take that we need to birth a new thing. Let me give you an example. Over the last several years, I’ve been praying that God would give me a hunger for the lost. First, I know that’s His will – it’s clear throughout the scriptures that God is hungry for the lost and wants not even one to perish, and that He wants us to join Him in that heart and work. But there was a time in my life when I was not. I remember about 10 years ago, I was in a small group Bible study and we were praying afterward, and a new friend of mine was crying during prayer time. I felt so much compassion for her, imagining she was struggling with a broken relationship, or had been hurt by someone. When we shared together afterward, she said she was weeping for those that do not know Jesus in our city – her heart was crying out to God, weeping with Him for sheep that were not yet with Him. I have to tell you, I grew up as a missionary kid, and quote, “reaching the lost” has been a mantra that I’ve heard a million times, but I don’t think I remembered ever seeing that passion and hunger and compassion. It shocked me. And I thought, that’s Jesus. That’s what I want. I want to be hungry for what He is hungry for; I want to see what He sees; I want to want what He wants. And I set on a journey to seek Him and know Him. Now, I look at people, and I feel compassion, and I’m hungry to see them know Life. I’m hungry for people. I’m hungry to see Christ in people. The bible says to seek him while he may be found. Friends, don’t waste a day. There are prayers you can pray within covenant with God, that are just brainless if you know what I mean. It is so hugely clear, certain things that ARE according to His will. Let me just read some examples of prayers that we know for certain are within God’s will:

1) Lord, help me to want what you want, see what you see.
2) Lord help me to honor and love my parents more.
3) Lord, make me more like you
4) Lord, make me more of a servant, and keep me humble before you
5) Lord give me your compassion, and make me merciful and long-suffering like you
6) Lord, reach the nations, every tribe and tongue, with Your love and the good news that you bring Abundant life
7) Lord, make us, your children, One as you are one. Pull us together as your Body, fully united. Lord help us to understand and live the reality that we cannot function without you and without each other.
8) Lord, be glorified in all the earth. Wherever your Name is questioned or brought low, pour out your Glory and draw people to you.
9) Lord, wherever you people are suffering from persecution, fill them with your sustaining Love and boldness, to remain faithful til the end.
10) Lord make us fruitful in your vineyard, sharing your Life, bringing new Life, investing all we are for your Kingdom, giving it all away.
11) Lord, bring all of the parentless children into homes of your making, for you’re the Father of the fatherless.
12) Lord, strengthen all the marriages in the world to be more and more a reflexion of you.

There are so many powerful prayers that we know are His will. Let me tell you a secret. When we pray these things that are according to Scripture, God must fulfill them because it’s His word we are praying. Have you ever thought about that? He cannot go back on His Word, He absolutely cannot. There are so many verses that say this – it’s a whole other study. We are covenant partners, and we are holding Him to His covenant promises. In Psalm 138:2 the psalmist says, I bow before your holy Temple as I worship. I will give thanks to your name for your unfailing love and faithfulness, because your promises are backed by all the honor of your name.” We pray according to His Names, His character, His heart, and the moving in our heart. Now, when we pray according to what’s on our hearts, and it is not clear in scripture that it is His purpose, then we have to understand that sometimes we’re just not getting it right. But God knows. He is changing our hearts to be more like His, as we dwell closely with and in Him. Don’t give up. Praying for a car or a life partner, well, we just don’t exactly know what He wants. But what I do know, is that He wants us to lay those desires before Him, and engage Him about it. Invite Him to change your heart as needed and do what it takes to keep you on the right path “…and He will give you the desires of your heart”.

The last thing I want to mention here, is about the power of praying with other people. I’m still learning about this and I’m so enthralled. When Jesus was teaching the disciples to pray, He said it in terms of WE. Our Father, who art in heaven. He teaches us throughout His word the foundational nature of our intimacy with one another – an eye can’t function without a hand. Corporate prayer, prayer of many together, is a very powerful thing, that seems to do something different, or beyond what an individual prays. I’m learning about it. I want do join in prayer with others more and more and more – I’m hungry to do it together. I think that’s God putting something in my heart. I know the BCM has a prayer room now – that’s exciting. There are several groups on campus that meet regularly for group prayer. I believe a day will come when we routinely see ministries and denominations coming together more and more to pray and seek God’s face. I encourage you to commit yourself not only to prayer as an individual, but as a group.

I want us to take some time now to pray. And I want you to lay your heart before the Lord. (close your eyes). Did you know that we are living in the greatest drama ever known? We’ve got some great movies and special effects these days – I mean, things that make your heart thump and your head spin, and you think about it for days after. But that is nothing, compared to the glory of God. God created the minds that came up with those movies! If you want to enter God’s drama, He is so eager to see you step forward and press into Him. It all starts in prayer. Picture your heart rolled out like a football field. All the patchy areas, the dry areas, the watered areas, the dead areas, the pit holes. Just roll it out before Him and ask Him to fill you up and change you, to water your heart. If you are feeling like this is a bunch of hogwash, that’s OK. Then your prayer can be, God if you’re really real, I ask you to show yourself to me and I’m trying to be open to that. Wherever you’re at – take that, and that’s where you pray from. Don’t skip forward several steps to where you think you should be. Just be where you are, and bring that before your loving King. He is not at all surprised or shocked – He made you and knows you inside and out and knows you better than you know yourself; so if you pretend and just are trying to sound religious, He sees way past that. Be honest. Jesus acts in the midst of what is real, and hates pretense. He is drawing you and longs for you with a Love that is boundless! If Jesus is not yet your Lord, you can do that now. Just ask Him in, acknowledge your sin, your need, your hunger, and turn from what you were before, toward Him and His Light. He will shine on you and show you the way. If this is a decision you’ve made tonight, please, talk to someone afterward and let them give you some help with the way forward and to pray with you. But if you already are in covenant with God, come to Him now. Can you guys get on your knees? If you want to, go for it – it’s a bodily expression of our hearts as we come to God in His greatness. Only if you want to. ENGAGE Him. Ask Him to take you to the next level. Pour out your love to Him. Let me give you a minute and then I’m going to pray out loud. Be real.

Stephanie Powers grew up in Taiwan as a missionary kid. She then went to university in Tennessee. She moved to Boston for eight years. Then lived in East Africa for four years living in Tanzania and Uganda, most recently working with Favor of God Ministries in Gulu, Uganda. She is now in grad school for nursing at the Univesity of Tennessee in Knoxville. Then, if the Lord is willing, she will head to the Middle East help those who are unable to help themselves, and share the love of Christ our King with them.



"My friend Melly, she says that as she has grown in the Lord and in prayer with Him, prayer for her starts at His feet, then He invites her to crawl up into His lap and rest there, and then she climbs right into His heart. I love that." -Stephanie

Cambodia

Posted by Jonathan Trentham


Before I get to the task of detailing this amazing experience, I would first like to thank those who made this trip possible.

Above all, I give thanks to God, without his guidance, provision, and continuous grace, I would have given up on going all together. God was with me every step of the way, through weakness, suffering, doubt, sickness, and distress, as well as through joy, relaxation, and satisfaction. He is my truest Companion and only Lord. Second, I would like to thank my mother and father, they have been extremely gracious with me. I know it is hard for them to see me spend so much money on travel so recently, but believe me mom and dad, God has rewarded my obedience. I thank you for your enormous support and encouragement even when it doesn't seem I'm making the wisest of decisions. Next, I would like to thank my church family, Harvest. Each of you have done so much for me here in the states, but I could especially feel your arm of Harvest holding me up as I served as a Hand for the Body of Christ. Your prayers and encouragements meant more to me than I could ever describe. Fourthly, I would like to thank all of my family and friends that took time to pray and support me as I prepared and served on this trip. God moved through your prayers more times than I could count. So much could have gone wrong, but didn't because you stood in the way and interceded on my behalf. Thank you. And last but not least I would like to thank the rest of the team that went on the trip. We all grew closer together, and relied greatly on each other's prayers and support. We truly were a unified team, and I look forward to working again with each of you. God bless.



Bob was sick during the taking of this picture. SORRY



This trip, first and foremost was about God and His love of people. Here is a slide show of some lives God has touched through this trip:




So here the journey begins:

Our adventure started as soon as we reached the Knoxville airport. DELAYED. Our flight had been delayed two hours. Can you imagine how much more I could have slept in?! ARRRGH! None the less, we were there with PLENTY of time to double check everything, pray and check in. We got to our gate, and crashed. As we awaited our flight to Atlanta, we each tried to squeeze in a few more moments of sleep before the roaring engines would keep us awake for the duration of our travels. We made it just fine to Atlanta, and caught a connecting flight to Los Angeles, knowing that we wouldn't be able to catch the next connecting flight to Korea. However, as the flight came to an end, it looked more and more like we might just be able to make it. The LA airport consists of two buildings, we were to land in one, and run to the other to get on another plane. Knowing this, we hit the ground running. As we reached the second building, we saw that there was only a janitor behind the ticketing desk we were to check in at. You could almost hear our spirits drop, but wait! Sure enough, the assistants came forward and began to check us in. They had already given our seats away, but after a little convincing, and overcoming a slight language barrier, we got them to get us some seats. As soon as we got checked in we took off running through the airport, tore through security, and ran down the concourse with untied shoes. By the time we all reached the plane, we were all glistening with sweat, and panting for breath. We highly doubted our luggage made it to this plane, but there was no way to know. PS: Sorry, mom and dad, for not calling you before I left the country, as you can see, I was just a little busy!

As I was finding my seat, a bearded gentleman shouted at me and asked if I was with lighthouse ministries. As I struggled to catch my breath, and figure out who this guy was, I replied that I was. I soon found out that him and the guy next to him were the two guys from Virgina that were joining us for the trip. They were both excited that we made the flight and we found our seats. This began one very very very long flight. Our team was spread out all over the plane since the ticketing counter had to reassign our seats, and so each of us had to entertain ourselves for the international flight across the Pacific. I didn't really want to read, watch TV or a movie, so I prayed that God would show me some way to pass the time. Not a second after I began my prayer, I saw the lady next to me had a Bible in the pouch in front of her. I politely asked if she was a Christian pointing to her Bible. She replied, "Yes, I am." THANK YOU LORD, she spoke English!!! Keep in mind that I was on a Korean airline with mostly (you guessed it!) Koreans. Come to find out, she was Filipino, and spoke fluent Spanish and German, too! I began telling her a little about myself and the mission trip we had just embarked on. She told me that she wanted me to grab something out of her suitcase, she had a gift for me. I curiously complied and grabbed the book she wanted me to get. She had apparently just published a book, about the rewards of faithfulness, and wanted me to have her only copy. I was honored and spent most of that flight discussing the material of the book, as well as testimonies to the greatness of the God we serve. I was so humbled that God honored such a simple and selfish request, so I wouldn't be bored. He truly is a loving and caring God.

We landed in Korea, still with no idea as to whether we would get our luggage at all for the trip. For all we knew, our luggage could be waiting in Bangkok as planned, or it could take up to two weeks to get back to us by then it would be to late. We spent some time sharing stories of how each other survived the boredom of such a long flight with no friends, and took some well needed rest. We only had one more flight until we could grab a bite of REAL food, and lay in a REAL bed, so we could catch up on some REAL sleep.

Our flight to Bangkok was uneventful, there was still a lot of talk in the air about the possibility of our bags making it, but it was all speculation. When we got to Bangkok, we went through customs, and approached the baggage check. Prayers were being muttered, and I had all my fingers crossed. But all for not. Our bags hadn't made it. Thankfully, Dave and Shane's bags made it just fine. But we all sat around while Lewis dealt with the baggage representative. After a while, Lewis came back with some good news. Our bags would be making it to Phnom Penh in a couple days. So without our check luggage we all piled into a couple taxis and headed to the hotel. Once we all got settled in, we all met back outside to run to the store to grab some needed toiletries that were not in our carry ons. The hotel we stayed at was pretty nice, it had a narrow, steep, winding stair case or a ridiculously slow elevator to choose from. It reminded me a lot of a hotel in Rome I had stayed at. The rooms had a couple full sized beds, a full bath, and a little kitchen area. All in all, it was much better than sleeping in an airport concourse. The next morning we all headed downstairs to meet for breakfast. Lewis took us to a place where he had eaten when the last Superbowl was on, and he shared some stories of times he had been in Bangkok before. The breakfast was great, I had some Tom Yum Soup which was like a spicy shrimp soup. It was very good! We then headed back to the airport to finish our flight schedule. Just one more connection, Phnom Penh. Most of us didn't have any luggage to check, and so things were pretty easy going. We even had some time to stop and get some VERY nutritious Dairy Queen. (it keeps our immune systems running strong)



When we landed in Cambodia, we found Vutha there to greet us. We loaded up what bags we had into what looked to be the most comfortable truck in the world (see top of post), and all found a seat. We somehow managed to all fit on the tiny seats, with all of our luggage sitting in the middle. Lets just say that leg room was not an option for me. Yeah, that's me in the very back. Phnom Penh was much louder than what you might expect. There was traffic everywhere, and I mean everywhere. Lewis describes the traffic well by saying it is very much like liquid. Scooters zip in and out of lanes dodging sometimes on coming traffic, and sometimes just slow cars. Bicycles run the sides of the roads, and cars just lay on the horn, expecting everyone to yield to them. We saw at least two accidents on our way to the restaurant. Accidents will shake you up, whether they are common or not. Thankfully, we didn't see anyone get seriously injured, but it doesn't take much imagination to think how bad things could be. It was times like these that we knew we had people praying for us, because there is nothing we could have done if someone came hurtling into us. We decided that we would leave Matt and Bob in Phnom Penh until our luggage arrived at the airport. The rest of the team would head on to Kampot, and begin work on the building.

When we got to the restaurant we all huddled around a massive round table with a very large lazy Susan in the middle. This would be our first Cambodian food of the trip. We all examined the menu to find things that would not destroy our insides. We all introduced ourselves to each other, vutha, Lewis's daughter and the two older girls from Heritage House. We then all piled back into the truck, dropped Matt and Bob off at a hotel, and started our long ride to Kampot. Things were bumpy to say the least on that ride. We were all pretty tired, but still had to stand up from time to time, just to stretch our legs. As we watched the road fly past the back of the truck, we could see poverty, gambling, tin roof shacks and shed's with hammocks, as well as a lot of rice fields. Towards the end of the ride, we all started singing worship songs. They really lifted our spirits and got us in the mindset for what we were headed into.


When we got to the hotel, it was dark, and we were sore. We had just spent more than a day sitting in planes, airports, and being bounced around like a basket ball. The term bed was what gave me enough strength to climb up the three story staircase. The hotel didn't have hot water, so we all took some cold showers to get the travel grime off of us, and got a good nights sleep. The next morning, all the guys happened to be up early, so we all headed over to the orpahange to to check things out. We all got our first views of the city, and we pulled into the building Lewis had rented. The building was dirty so say the least. There was mold covering most of the walls, and there was....uh...some nasty stuff, everywhere in the bathrooms. It had been a very long time since that building had been cleaned. The building was apparently one of the oldest buildings in Kampot, but even the new buildings there look pretty old and worn out. We then went back to the hotel to grab the girls and took them over the the orphanage to check things out. By then it was time to eat.




The food, I loved the food. The first place we tried, the CoCo House, seemed to hit the bulls-eye. It was a tiny little place with no more than about ten small tables. We rarely if ever saw anyone else in the restaurant. Our hosts were friendly and we loved interacting with them. They did all they could to make us feel at home. (including playing some very cheesy 80's and 90's karaoke CD's) We soon remedied the music problem by asking to play some Christian CDs we had. They were more than happy to do it for us, and hearing hymns and worship while we ate and discussed the trip helped to lift our spirits even further. We tried a couple times throughout the trip to eat at some other places, but lets just say that the food elsewhere didn't sit too well on our American stomachs. Even when we weren't able to leave the orphanage because of time, Lewis would go the the CoCo House and pick us all up some food. It was easy to say that the CoCo House soon became the La Fiesta of Cambodia. We felt free to share testimonies of the trip, give insights that God had given us, have bible studies, pray, as well look into finding Matt a Cambodian wife. (Unfortunately, people who worked there were unable to come up with one so soon. Sorry Matt!) By half way through the trip, we all had the menu memorized. And by the end of the trip, we all had a "usual" for each meal. Some of my personal favorites were pancakes with key limes and sugar on top. Noodles with chicken or beef, as well as a delicious fruit plate with pineapple, apple, dragon fruit, banana and papaya. We all ate very well, and were mostly able to stay away from being sick for most of the trip.

After our first breakfast, be began the cleaning process. This consisted of cleaning some nearly unbearable bathrooms, wiping away a jungle of cobwebs, scraping scraping and scraping away a tremendous amount of water damage, as well as wiping down a lot of tile. We went through a lot of bleach, bathroom cleaner and took off an enormous amount of plaster. And that was just the inside. Outside there was a lot of over grown foliage, as well as a lot of grime that had to be scraped. And that was just to get the place clean!


After all the cleaning was done, it was time to start the real work. Painting, rescraping, repainting. Bob did a great job rewiring everything so no one would be electrocuted. We also needed to put in a clothes line with some very warped hardwood, and very weak hammers.


When we finished, you could barely recognize the inside, and the outside cleaned up really well. Everyone pitched in, and even the children did an amazing job helping out. Even the landlord was very complimentary of our job! The staff and children of the Heritage House were very happy with all that we got done. It was very satisfying.



While we weren't working, we had a great deal of time to walk around the city and see what there was to see, I truly loved this part of the trip. It was an amazing experience to pass by businesses, shrines, and homes praying and listening to hear what God had to say. God revealed many things to each person in the group, and it was common for the spirit to reveal similar if not exactly the same things to many people at once. I love that our God confirms his words to us! We even found an old church building! Lewis is looking into renting it for the church plant that Vutha is planning.

One very neat thing to me, was to see that how God had filled this city with beauty. Everywhere you looked, there were flowers, and other exotic things. They looked so different from the worn down buildings and trash piles. Every time I saw something like that, it put a smile on my face.



On our last day in Kampot, we took some more time to take in the sights, we went to go see the market where all of the food we ate was purchased. The ground was very dirty, and plants and meat were hanging everywhere. The smell wasnt too bad, but you could imagine it could in the summer months. WARNING: this video does have pictures of the meat and some animal parts.


After spending some time in the market, we decided to go on a boat ride up the river. We all got in this boat that barely held all of us. The rim of the boat was about an inch and a half away from the water, and that was when we had it perfectly balanced and going strait. The views we had were absolutley amazing. And we had a beautiful sunset that made it look like the mountains were on fire. It was truely a blessing from God.


We left the next day for Phnom Pehn, we grabbed a few last dougnuts at the dougnut shop in Kampot and got in the taxi and headed back. I had an amazing time in Kampot, and was missing it even before I left. The taxi ride was cramped, there was two drivers, and nine of us with our luggage in the van. As we were being bounced around, we all wondered how we made it to Kampot in the back of the truck. This van had cushion seats and we were still stiff and sore! When we got to Phenom Penh, we dropped our stuff off at the hotel, and took a couple tuk tuks out to Lucky Burger, and got some good ole american food! We then went to the Russian market and did some shopping. When we were done with that we went out and grabbed some pizza (more american food!)

When we were leaving the pizza place, we were unable to get some tuk tuks, so we all split op on moto taxis....bad idea. The guys all got to the internet cafe we were to meet at, but the girls, with their excellent sense of direction, got lost. (Yes, I am teasing, it wasnt their fault at all) The girls, Heather and Maria on one moto, and Sarah and Roonie on the other, got a nice little night time tour of the city, particularly the rougher areas. There was nothing us guys could do but hope they would show up at the hotel. After a little while, my stomach couldnt handle the pizza much longer, so I split off from the group and headed back to the hotel. The moto taxi I got seemed to be a little on the drunk side. I got a nice little tour myself, and the guy had to stop three times to look at the little map on the card we got from the hotel. (two of those times, he was holding it upside down) I eventually got back, only a few minutes after Maria and Heather did, and as I was walking towards the hotel, I heard Sarah shout my name. Thank goodness they all made it back alright! Sarah paid the driver very happily and ran into the hotel and kissed the ground. We all shared our stories, and then I headed onto bed with a migrane.

When I got up the next morning my headache was gone and I was feeling much better. We went downstairs, ordered some breakfast and all got something different from what we ordered. It seemed only the people at the front desk spoke a little English. After breakfast, we headed to the airport and said our goodbyes to Lewis. We flew from Phnom Penh to Bangkok and had an eight our layover there. We couldnt check our luggage in until two hours before the flight so we had six hours to kill in the main part of the airport. We quickly found the massage place and we spent most of the time in there. I spent three hours being massaged and spend the rest of the time talking with the rest of the group while they were getting pedicures. It was very very relaxing. If we hadnt gotten the massages, I dont think we would have survived the journey home!

We then flew to Seoul, Korea, and had another eight hour layover. I caught up on some sleep and found a free internet cafe. We then flew to San Francisco, and barely made our flight. There were only a few people running security and they were taking their sweet time. We then flew to Atlanta, and had a great time joking with the flight attendants. They were a lot of fun. We landed in Atlanta, and had about an hour before our flight home. I grabbed a bite to eat and stretched my legs. On our last flight home, we were cracking up our flight attendents, we had been going for two days strait and we were acting very goofy. The flight attendants were barely able to make it through the saftey demonstration they were laughing so hard.

We finally landed back home in knoxville at around 10:20pm, grabbed our bags and headed home. So here I am back home in knoxville after an amazing mission trip to Kampot, Cambodia. PRAISE GOD!


PS: Check out Lewis's blog To the Ends of the Earth.

Found My Home

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

I will rest in you
As the storm blows over
I will rest in you
Because I am safe
I will rest in you
For you are my shelter
In your heart O Lord
I have found my home

Keep me close to you
I dont want to wander
Keep me close to you
I desire your presence
Keep me close to you
I cannot do it alone
In your heart O Lord
I have found my home

Make me new in you
Let my flesh die away
Make me new in you
That I be made holy
Make me new in you
May you shine from in me
In your heart O Lord
I have found my home

I give praise to you
because you are worthy
I give praise to you
for you gave me new life
I give praise to you
because you protect me
In your heart O Lord
I have found my home

I listen to you
in the quiet moments
I listen to you
when all else says not to
I listen to you
Beause you have wisdom
In your heart O Lord
I have found my home

Get Excited!

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

If you have ever met my friend Megan, you have undoubtedly heard the phrase: “Get Excited!” And despite the hundreds, if not thousands, of times I have heard her say it, I still need the reminder to simply “get excited”.

A few weeks ago, I was working on the jobsite with David, when he innocently asked if I was excited yet about my trip to Cambodia. Immediately, I felt my heart fall about four feet to the ground, and I realized that I wasn’t excited. I had spent all my strength worrying about money, and arguing with God. I hadn’t allowed myself to get excited, and I didn’t know how to make myself get excited. I simply smiled and told David I was getting there, but my spirit had struck a blow to my flesh. I knew I was supposed to be getting excited, and I didn’t even know where to start.

I have always been a pretty “dull” guy. There isn’t a whole lot that gets me stirred up, or dragged down. I tend to kind of sit right in the middle, not ever experiencing either extreme. I’m not a robot; I do veer from one side to the other on occasion, but it is never to the point of being truly excited, or depressed. This is something that I didn’t know how to fix other than to pray.

Then, while I was listening to a CD in my car the other day, the song “O Come Let Us Adore Him” came on. This version of it starts with Psalm 126:5: “Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.” I felt like God was telling me that if I wanted to feel joy, it meant I had to also feel pain. What I needed to be praying was to feel something…anything. This is a very scary idea for me. I have always considered myself “strong” emotionally. I have control; I don’t get sad, or angry, or hurt. What I soon realized, was I was truly weak emotionally because it was ME in control, not God. Jesus wept, and He is the strongest person I know. He didn’t only shed a tear, he wept. Feeling pain is not a sin, but avoiding it because of fear is.

Having this revelation has not brought me to tears just yet, but it has allowed me to see some walls I have built and allowed to stand for far too long. With the help of my Father, I will be tearing them down as the Lord guides me. It has been many years, yes years, since I have sown in tears. And I don’t expect to turn into a sobbing mess over night. But with God, all things are possible. God is working in me. Get excited!!

Those who sow in tears
Shall reap in joy.
He who continually goes forth weeping,
Bearing seed for sowing,
Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing,
Bringing his sheaves with him.
Psalm 126:5-6

Washing Feet

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you.
- John 13: 14-15

I wanted to take an opportunity to thank those who washed my feet today. I have been struggling to raise the needed funds for my mission trip to Cambodia, and one of my friends had the idea of having a car wash. Without me making any arrangements, or putting forth any effort, the entire car wash was planned and prepared for. All I had to do was show up. I had five very dear friends spend their day holding signs, scrubing cars, and sitting in the hot sun hoping for another car to show up.

I spent that time in amazement as each of them spent our dead time texting (as fast as their thumbs could go) all their friends to try to drum up some more bussiness. And when a car did come by, no one tried to get out of helping, we all jumped in and sprayed, scrubed, rinsed, and dried every car. They were eager to help me out however they could.

It was truely a service to me, there was nothing in it for any of them. All the donations are going directly to pay for my part of the mission trip. I honestly wish I could give them something in return for what they have done for me. But all I can do is say thank you, and thank God for the amazing brothers and sisters He has blessed me with.

So thank you,
Sarah, Mauk, Justin, Hannah, and Josiah

You have washed my feet, by washing other people's cars!

I hope some day to wash yours.

I need some prayer.

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Recently I have been struggling to actually sit down and write out some of the things God has been showing me. God has been speaking to me so much, and I have so much to share, but there always seems to be one reason or another for me to delay typing it out. So after weeks of fighting with this, I have decided that it is time for me to call in the reinforcements. I am making this post to ask for prayer for my blog.

Too often God's words cry out from inside me, but somehow I have managed to keep them bound in my mind and heart, never to be seen by others. I cannot stand to take this much longer. I need prayer that I will conquer whatever fear and self deception I have allowed to take place, and through that God given victory, step forward and make a stand for my King.

I have this strong desire to use this blog to bring glory to God, and encourage His followers. And without His help, I cannot do this. So if you wish for a place of refreshment, revelation, and encouragement, please spend sometime asking for God to move strongly through me, to bring such a place to this blog.

Nothing I have written here has come from my mind or heart, but rather from the pure and awesome pen of the Holy Spirit. He is the Writer of my Faith, and the Guide to my Path. Pray that I will rely fully on Him, and allow Him to do His work through me.

Fellowship of the Unashamed

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

I found this online a little while back. It was supposedly written by a pastor in Africa, one night, just before he was martyred for his faith in Christ. Whether or not the back story behind this is true, I have made a decision to stand for what statement this makes. Would you stand with me?

I am part of the "Fellowship of the Unashamed." I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I've stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals!

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, lean [on] faith, love [with] patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought , compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won't give up, shut up, let up, or burn up till I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops.

And when He comes to get His own, He'll have no problems recognizing me. My colors will be clear.

My Stupid Pride

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

I know my pride has gotten in the way
It holds me back from day to day
It’s stolen so so much from me
I feel as though it’s ruined me
I’ve tried to walk my separate path
But instead I found God’s wrath
I tried and tried, but fell each time
Trying to walk the same ole line

Why can’t I do this by myself
Why must I seek another
My soul is fighting with these thoughts
I don’t know if I’ll recover

I struggle with this every hour
As my faith searches for the power
To overcome this mount of pride
That my heart has built inside
I long for an end to this stupid war
This just isn’t something I can ignore
It overflows my very being
My whole inside is disagreeing

Why can’t I do this by myself
Why must I seek another
My soul is fighting with these thoughts
I don’t know if I’ll recover

The siege of pride, bitterness, and fear
Has taken away all I hold dear
I’m locked away up in this tower
And by myself I lack the power
To burst through all of my opposition
The only way out is through submission
But then again my pride steps in
And there begins a fight again.

Why can’t I do this by myself
Why must I seek another
My soul is fighting with these thoughts
I don’t know if I’ll recover

I cry aloud to the King of kings
To whom my weary soul clings
I ask for victory over this war
My heart is aching and my body is sore
He reminds me that the victory is mine
Just simply obey and all will be fine
But to obey the command to go seek another
Is the very thing my pride tries to smother.

Why can’t I do this by myself
Why must I seek another
My soul is fighting with these thoughts
I don’t know if I’ll recover

I’m not just hurting my own heart
But others who need me to start
To lift up their souls and see
How they can encourage me
I am done with this stupid fight
I have decided to do what’s right
I will take a stand and obey my King
For His is the only song that I sing

I cannot do this by myself
I must go seek another
My soul has defeated prideful thoughts
And His salvation I rediscovered.

I know my pride has gotten in the way
And I’ll need your help to do what I say
I need to do, by sharing with you
I know that this is all overdue
I will open up about what’s with me
But I don’t expect it to be easy
All I ask is that you’ll pray
For my pride to stay way

Am I Truely Your King?

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Jesus, my wise and perfect King
I would lay down my life for you,
I desire your wisdom in my life
I need you to deliver me from my surroundings
I would even go to the cross for you!

Loved one,
Your requests are noble and wise
But your heart is not sincere
Would you really let me be your King?

Yes my Lord,
You are my master!

Then listen to my voice

But Jesus,
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to talk to that stranger
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to take that financial risk
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to take this time to read your word
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to get emotional in front of these people
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to cook a meal for my friend
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to pray to you right now
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to talk about your church
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to stop sinning
I would go to the cross for you
but dont ask me to obey at this moment
I would go to the cross for you
but don’t ask me to raise my hands in church

Am I truly your King?
If so, your attitude would be very different
Your response would be,
"Yes my Lord,I would do these things,
Even if it costs me my life"

Lonely Winter

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Winter was a cold cold season
That left me down for no good reason
Lonely skies without an end
While through the air blew a dead wind
My heart was killed by that winter cold
As it whispered the last secret told
But with that last little breath of life
Ended all my pain and strife

For in that moment I looked to see
A wall of light approaching me
A glorious blast of color filled sky
Caught my dried and weary eye
A wave of warmth overtook my soul
As the wave passed over making its roll
Through all that was surrounding me
As though this world was one big sea
I jumped to my feet to look around
But then I heard this still small sound

It was a voice that I knew I once knew
But I still could not figure out just who
So I spoke back to it to find out more
And then I remembered the distant shore
Where I used to walk with a Friend so dear
And had made a promise to stay near
So I ran to Him, and fell at His feet
As He sat there on His judgment seat
But I wasn’t scared of the words
He hadI loved this man as a son loves his dad

I cried for having lost my way
And thanked Him for this brand new day
Where I can walk in His loving grace
And never turn from His joy filled face

The Cry of My Heart

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Lord, I praise you with every fiber of my being
There is nothing in me that is being withheld
From this time of complete worship
I give it all to you
This life came from you and I give it all back
Just to know that you have more for me
All you started with was my broken heart
Because I didn’t have anything of worth to give you
But you accepted my gift, and made me yours
What else could I have offered you
What else could I have asked for

I follow you, because I love you
If I didn’t love you, I couldn’t have come this far
But I have never regretted a single step I made towards you
You have filled my cup time and time again
To the point of overflowing and then so much more
Oh Lord God Almighty, may your praises be lifted up
I worship you with just a joyful heart, for I have nothing else
Worthy to praise you with, this body cannot dance
Graceful enough to be worthy of your court, and my lips
They cannot sustain a single note on key
What then, besides my heart, can I bring before you

I ask only for things that I can turn around and glorify you with
I do not ask for anything that would not bring worship to you
If you give me knowledge, may it be to show the infinite understanding you have
If you give me money, may it be to show the vast treasures you own
If you give me a craft, may it be to show the creativity of the Creator
If you give me a gift, may it be to show the promise you made to provide
If you give me a friend, may it be to show that you will never allow me to be alone
If you give me a word, may it be to show the perfect wisdom you share
If you give me a song, may it be to show your awesome holiness
And if you give me grace, may it show your eternal love for me

What else can I do to serve you, I sit at your feet and watch
Waiting for my next task, I remain only yours
There is none like you, allow me to show you to others
Your praises flow from inside me, they burst forth
And your blessings blast me like a tidal wave
They crash into my life saturating all that I am
Is it possible for me to drown in your glory
Oh, I would if I could
To be baptized like a sinking ship
By your truth and life
As your love covers me inside and out
Teach me your ways
That I may walk in your presence
That I may bring glory and honor to you
Oh worthy Lamb of God
King of kings, Lord of lords, Master, Teacher, Father, Friend
You are my all in all, and you hold me up
And close to you, never to leave your side
I am yours, and you are mine
Teach me your grace, show me your love
For with those things, all things are possible
Your wisdom shines light, and separates truth from lie
And is at the taking, should I only ask
And so I ask, I cry out to you, and you reply
In a still small voice, that it is mine
Thank you for everything, because everything I have has come from you
And I seek to glorify you, through everything I have
I thank you, and praise you in the name of Jesus the Christ

The Day the Stars Fell

Posted by Jonathan Trentham

Would you look at us
How far we have come
From a band of rebels,
To our own kingdom
Just look at our greatness
And our grand statues
Even our clothes are nice
From our hats to our shoes
There can’t be a way
That a culture like this
Could be brought straight down
And thrown into abyss


Oh how young you are
Oh if only you knew
The things which will come
And the time that is due
For such a nation like this
Will surely crumble and fall
And nothing will remain
Not the short or the tall
With nothing left standing
Not even your pride
You will run to the mountains
And therein will hide

How can this be?
Oh such a crime
How will we know?
When it is time?
Please give us the date
So we can prepare
Please tell us right now
We need you to share!

Don’t be too eager
To hear such speech
For many will come
That they might reach
A following that is
Not truly for Me
But instead is pursuing
My own enemy
They will say “I am He”
The one who has come
To guide you back into
The Lord’s Kingdom
But do not be fooled
By such a man
For not even I know
My Father's end plan
Yes, wars will rage
And earthquakes as well
But these things aren’t the end
Though it may seem like Hell
There will be great famine
And you’ll search for a crumb
It is only the beginning
Of what is to come

Be careful my chosen
For you will be hunted
And brought before counsels
And you’ll be confronted
For all of your dealings
And actions towards me
You’ll be attacked in churches
Oh just wait and see
You’ll be hard at work
Working my land
Only to be betrayed
By a trusted hand.
But do not worry
About what you will say
My Spirit will guide
Your words on that day
You will be hated by all
And will feel mistreated
But you will be saved
And the enemy, defeated

I gave you these signs
Don’t let them die away
For the time is coming
Keep watch for that day
For when it approaches
You won’t want to be caught
If you don’t watch for it
You’ll end up distraught
Looking for a way
To get it all back
You’ll look at your life
And all that you lack
But nothing can be done
To redeem that time
The world’s final hour
Has made its last chime
You should flee as quickly
As your body will go
Don’t go get supplies or
Seek those you know
You must make haste
And find some cover
What the world will go through
You won’t want to discover

It is then, only then
That I will return
I have told you this now
So that you will learn
You won’t hear me proclaimed
Through the voice of a man
But instead I will return
In a way only I can

After the hard times
The sun will grow dim
The stars will all fall
And the sky will look grim
The moon will darken
And shine not its light
And all of the people
Will try to make flight
They will cry out to heaven
And to all they will yell
That this is the day
The day the stars fell

When these things come to pass
Keep an eye to the sky
For it is that moment
That I will pass by
I will be on the clouds
With power and glory
I am speaking the truth
This is no child’s story
My angels will gather
All those who are mine
And take them all up
Up to see the Divine

I have told you these things
So that you will know
For much like a fig tree
After the winters snow
Will stick out its branches
And leaves will then sprout
Showing that summer is
Coming and winter is out.
Please learn these signs
So you won’t be surprised
For many will claim
That it was all disguised
Keep a watchful eye
And a prayerful heart
And with just those things
Your preparation with start

Stay hard after me
And please don’t stray
I will be like a master
Who went far away
Leaving jobs for his servants
To do in his leave
But his return is unknown
So don’t be naive
Would be a shame for you
To be found fast asleep
When the master comes back
Oh how you would weep

So I’ll leave you with one
Final word of advice
Watch, again I say watch
Or you will pay the price.

The book of Mark, chapter 13